You know, I never thought I’d be studying things like politics or American history! That I’d be able to have the motivation to go back to school and do homework and hours of reading, but what I’ve realized is that the reason I was never actually moving myself to actually do anything in this world, is that I was ‘waiting’ to ‘be motivated’, for somehow some ‘motivation’ to come from somewhere,and then I would ‘feel inspired’ and could then follow that ‘inspiration’ and that would somehow make me able to actually commit to something for a duration long enough to actually become effective or skilled or ‘knowledgeable’ in some subject.

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What is especially fascinating, is the ‘discovery’ that I do not actually require ‘motivation’ or ‘interest’ in something to be able to do it, and enjoy doing it, and be quite effective at it. There were resistances at first, because this was the sort of thing that ‘clashed’ with my previous pre-programmed definitions of myself, as what I believed was what I was interested in. according to the behaviors and mentalities that I saw around me and copied. Ideas that you’re not ‘supposed’ to be interested in things like the government, or history, or math, or in fact, anything that seems to involve some sort of effort.
I thought I wanted to do things like watch movies and play video games and listening to music. Don’t get me wrong, I certainly enjoy doing those things, but that was practically all I did, and on a regular basis. Those were the things it was apparently ‘acceptable’ to do, that no one’s going to make fun of you if you do (although people will actually make fun of anything, if not listening to music, then it’s the type of music you’re listening to, etc).

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What’s quite fascinating, is that as I share with others around me about what I’m learning, some of them are surprised that I’ve apparently ‘taken an interest’ in these subjects, and in getting involved in politics, as if it’s something that I’m doing because I have some sort of ‘inspiration’ to, because I ‘like’ the subject, which I then explain that it’s not the case at all. I am not studying these subjects because I had any interest whatsoever in them, as I explained, I quite did not.
But as I came to see and understand what’s necessary to be done in this world, I realized that it’s necessary to do these things. If this world is ever ‘going to change’, it will be through us as individuals, standing up and living that change into reality, and the best way to do that is through the political structure. So I have literally ‘pushed’ myself to do this, despite having all kinds of resistances and no ‘motivation’ inspiring me to do so.

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I mean, when faced with the decision to do that which really matters in this world, to be a part of the solution and really make a difference, be significant, was I going to allow resistances and programmed ‘preferences’ to stop me from doing what needs to be done, that’s going to bring about a world that would be worth living in- the kind of world I’d always wanted to be in- was I really going to allow anything to stop me?
It was and is up to me to answer that question, and I answer that question in every breath I take. And I am still here, still pushing, and as I go it becomes easier. In fact, what I’ve found is that the perceptions I had about what was interesting to me and the resistances I had to studying certain subjects, have practically just melted away, they weren’t real in the first place, they were just built on ideas and opinions that had no substance whatsoever.

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Now I find, that in a way, I am actually ‘interested’ in these topics now, because I know that by studying these things like the political system, the government, history, the money system, etc, I am learning about how this world works, and this gives me a basis from which to understand how I can move in this world, and therefore I become more and more ‘able to participate’ in this world- I am gaining and developing the ability to actually be able to stand up in this world system and stand as it, equal to it, and direct it. All those other things that I allowed to take up all of my time before, none of them assisted me in this, in becoming able to actually participate in the system, and therefore, I was only keeping myself limited by just ‘hiding’ in those limited ‘interests’.

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